Walgreens and Prescriptions

I know I haven't been very good about posting in a while, I think with all the social media, my blogging kinda fell to the wayside. But, I really felt I needed to inform people of this and well, why not blog about it? LOL

Did you know about Walgreens Prescription Savings Club? I have seen it advertised several times, but just figured that my insurance would save me more. Especially since we pay a pretty penny for it! Well, the other day I inquired about it and inquired about my medications specifically. My Dr has started writing 90 prescriptions (if I want), and my insurance will only let you get 30 days at a time-which means 3 copays! Well, on the Walgreens plan I can get all 90 days, and get this, $30 for 3 months for one prescription! On my insurance it's $15 for one month! Already saving, and I only have to worry about filling it once every 3 months! One of my other meds cost less for 90 days through the savings plan, then it did for 30 days on insurance! What????

And another bonus: They figure out which is better savings for you with each medication! Like with D's prescription, insurance is better, and they will run it that way. Wow! This really is a no brainer for me, saving money without having to crunch the numbers every time! Woo-Hoo!!! Yes, it's the little things in life that can add up to really big!

Ok, I know you're thinking "All right, but how much does this amazing program cost?" Well, I'm so glad you asked! Are you sitting down.....$20 for one person or $35 for the whole family per year! Uhm, yep you read that right, like less than 2 bucks a month!!! I am pretty sure other companies like CVS have these type of plans also, so I encourage you to check them out! Oh and by the way, I was not paid by Walgreens in anyway for this post. ;)

I Don't Want To!!!!!

This is how I feel right now about a decision I need to make. If you are a follower here, you probably know the battle I have had with anxiety/anger. Since my youngest was born (6.5 years ago), I struggled with severe anxiety and panic attacks. About 2 years ago I was able to stop taking medication. Yay! But, now It's Baaack!

I have been struggling with this decision for a few months now, secretly hoping it would go away on it's own. I am crying as I write this post, because I simply don't want to be on medication. I really don't, and I don't know why. The medicine itself really does help. I think that in my mind I feel that if I have to take meds then I am a failure who can't handle something so simple as my own emotions on my own.

But, right now, everything annoys me, every little thing the kids do stresses me out. You see, with my anxiety comes anger, and boy does it ever come on strong! Have you seen The Hulk? I hate it, I hate who I am when I get that way. But there's just something about the thought of being on medicine that makes me sad. Because by the looks of it, I'm probably going to have to be on it FOREVER. :(

Please pray with me, pray that I can be ok with this decision, pray that getting back on meds won't be as horrible as it was before. (I literally went through 6 different meds in 6 months when they were trying to figure me out). Thank you

Sorry my first post in many months is so depressing. :)

Carson's 6th Birthday!

Ok, this post is a LITTLE behind! I am playing catch up for sure, but I am getting it done. :) My sweet Carson turned 6 on December 19th. I seriously do not know where the years have gone, there are days that I look at him and think "Gosh he's so big!" and other days when I think "He's still my baby". Of course he is still my baby (don't tell him that-he might punch you).

We had originally planned a ice-skating party for C, but unfortunately his Daddy cancelled his party due to Carson's bad attitude. So, we had a family gathering and went to The North Pole Express in Grapevine. Had a blast! I think my Mimi and I had the most fun, it definitely makes you feel like a little kid again. Below are some pics of the special day.

And again Happy Birthday sweet Carson!
Breakfast in Bed
Snowman Pancakes

Mimi & Umpa

Umpa and our Host

Sexperiment

I have got to get something off my chest. Last night and today, I have seen TONS of FB posts and comments speaking out against Ed and Lisa Young's Sexperiment and the way the are promoting it today on the rooftop of their church building while in a "bed". You can see their live broadcast here I am amazed at the amount of people that haven't seen or heard what The Youngs have to say, but are trashing them, and I mean seriously trashing them! WOW! It immediately makes me think of the amount of religious leaders that tried over and over to prove that Jesus was wrong, and put so much energy into "hating" him that they missed God. I am amazed that people in the church today are wasting so much energy trying to prove someone wrong to everybody else. It just makes me sad, and I had to get it out!

I am going to be very honest here, again me being real. I could live the rest of my life without having sex. Seriously. And yes, I went there! My husband however, does not feel the same way! :) With all my anxiety issues, and other things, it is the LAST thing I want to do. I pray a lot about this issue, and while I wish that I could have the intimacy that God ordained for our marriage, I don't. Anyway, this is something that I am working out with God, myself, and my husband, who is being very patient with me (bless him).

I just think that if some of these people were experiencing some issues in this area, they would understand why it's so important that this subject be approached. While yes, I have heard about it in church before, to the extent of "God, says have sex with your husband", that hasn't actually helped me. So, I am tuning in today from time to time to see what they have to say. They are talking about all kinds of things, and interviewing other couples, pastors, and their own grown kids. Along with the marriage sex topics, they are also talking about how to share with your kids about sex, etc.

PS I do not go to this church, so I am not biased! :) And did I mention that they have been together since they were 15, married at 21, and have been married 30 years? That speaks volumes to me!

Who I Am

I am not perfect.
I am a child of God.
I get mad at my kids.
I don't always speak kindly to my husband.
While I have every good intention of teaching my children good, Godly principles, I fall short.
My kids do not wake up and recite scripture.
Lately it takes everything I have to get to church once a month.
I have abandonment/rejection issues.
I constantly battle Satan's lies about what I think others think about me.
I mourn friendships that no longer exist.
I want to be an amazing friend.
I get my feelings hurt easily.
I take hurtful words to heart.
I lose my temper frequently.
I can not tell a lie. (seriously I can't)
I sometimes take on a little too many projects at once.
I love pink.
I love to be girly.
I struggle with anxiety/panic attacks and have for over 10 years.
I sometimes walk in a room and have no idea what I am doing in there.
I wish I had embraced my senior year of high school more.
I have really big feet.
I LOVE shoes.
I like to drink wine.
I love time with my girlfriends.
Date nights make me happy.
I secretly want to drive a tank (oops not so secret anymore).
Quiet time with God is hard for me.
I can't stand fake people.
I love my boys (even when they drive me crazy).
I love my husband (even when he drives me crazy).
I sometimes say things I regret.
I love Jesus, and am so thankful for his sacrifice and forgiveness.

*UPDATE* I would like to challenge anyone who reads this to be "real" also. Post your Who Am I? I think we should get a movement started! Letting other women (and men) know that they are not alone, and that the only perfect person is Jesus!

Accepting Change

I am trying out my new App Blogger for my new IPhone. Yep, I finally took the plunge and joined the club! Maybe this will help me keep back up with my blogging! For those of you that know me, I don't do change well. And this Apple thing is a whole new world for me. LOL Oh well, here's to accepting change in the modern world.

Not About Me

A friend of mine's husband recently died suddenly during emergency heart surgery. She is my age, her 2 boys are the same age as Dalton and Carson. I hurt for her. I mean really hurt for her. I find myself weeping, sobbing, and having anxiety for what her and her boys are going through. And as much as my heart hurts for them, it is NOTHING even close to what they are feeling. I am writing this for a couple of reasons: 1. For you to please lift Jennifer Ogle, her boys Hudson and Cooper, and the rest of Jason's family in prayer. I know that right now she said she can feel the prayers and they are keeping her going. 2. To remember that we are here for a limited amount of time, to leave a legacy for Jesus.

While I didn't know Jason, it is so obvious that he truly left a legacy and definitely touched people. I pray that this will remain evident to his boys as they grow and they will turn to God their heavenly Father as their Dad did. I am going to post a link to her blog and to the memorial fund incase any of you would like to donate and or follow her experience. She is blogging as an outlet right now, and while her pain is obvious, her faith shows through in multitudes! Please come together prayer warriors!

Jennifers Blog: www.mom2hudsonandcooper.blogspot.com

Memorial Fund: http://www.giveforward.com/inlovingmemoryofjasonogle